Sorry I have been on hiatus for the last two weeks. A lot has happened and I felt like I needed to take a few weeks off in order to gather my thoughts and just take control of my life a little bit! This journey has been a lot more overwhelming than expected. Trying to be a good mom, dedicating myself to golf again, and figuring out what tournament schedule works for me and for our family has not been easy.
When I started playing and traveling again I had to give up a lot of the control I had over my kids’ everyday lives. I remember when I had Stella; I was there for every single milestone. I left her for the first time when she was around a year old. When I was not working, I loved knowing exactly what happened in my daughters’ days even if I was not around 100% of the time.
I was away all last week and came back to my youngest, Luiza, looking so much bigger and my oldest, Stella, telling me things she had done during the week that I had no idea about. It made me sad because I felt like I was missing out on so much. I have not taken her to school in over a week. Before I started playing I NEVER missed one day. I don’t have time to make them a freshly cooked meal every night and I always loved to cook for them. Nowadays there are weeks that I don’t even see a single poopy diaper from Luiza!
In addition to that, I have also had to transition into becoming a different golfer. When I played on tour before I dedicated 90% of my time into becoming the best golfer I could be. Now there are days when I only have a couple hours to practice. I am not complaining - I have just had to adapt. I have reached out to many former players and asked them how they became more efficient in their practice routines (I will divulge some of their tips in future posts!) I feel like their advice has helped me a lot and I cannot thank them enough.
It is all a transition. I have had to evolve as a golf player and parent and become a better working mom. I know it will all settle down once I find my ideal routine and travel schedule. Until then we will go through a lot of trial and error. OH BY THE WAY DID I MENTION WE ARE MOVING???!….to be continued….
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